Broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years yesterday
This is really hard, truthfully she was my first real girlfriend.
It just seemed like for the past year it hasn’t been the same, in the beginning it was great but it slowly got stale, the spark died. I wasn’t attracted to her as much as I feel I should have been, I was always looking at other women. And I felt bad.
It was pretty obvious she loved me a lot more than I did her, and that’s not fair.
I have a lot of love to give but I couldn’t poor it out completely onto her. She did more for me than I did for her, and that’s not fair.
She told me sometimes it felt like I took advantage of her so I felt like it was time to end it. If I’m not 100% sure she’s the one and she feels that way why waste our time any longer?
Even so though I can’t stop thinking about her, her little corks and the way she put up with my shit.
I thought this wasn’t gonna hurt me but shit it fucken wrecked me.